Life is just one big shitball…
I can’t be perfect for you. I never will be that perfect girl everyone knows and loves, but I’ve tried to be perfect for you. All these thoughts are racing through my mind and I don’t know why I’m worried about you so much. Its been a while since I’ve heard from you, and I’m scared of the place you’re in. I’m scared we are falling apart. I’ve fallen in love with you so much and gotten so close to you. Usually you know me as your strong girl, but I never show you how hurt I really am. No one understands it but me. Maybe because no one has ever loved you as much as I have. I can’t tell for sure if your lying to me or not anymore. I just want us back to the way we were before. When we were the happiest couple in school. When we were freshman year highschool sweethearts. I want that spark and flame of love that we once had back in our lives. But does that mean we have to give each other up? Depression keeps hitting me but I try never to let it show. I try to escape from it all. I even only wrote this because i was crying as it all came to mind and flowed out of me. I have scars and you know how much it hurts me to go back there, but you saved me. Now when my saddness shows people usually ask me if I’m fine and I always reply with “Yeah, don’t worry, why wouldn’t I be fine?.” I love you. I need you. Always and forever. I’m not perfect, but I’ve tried to be perfect for you. Just understand my words as you read this part of me that you never knew. My broken smile will always hide my pain, but inside my heart is bleeding shades of gray. You are the solution. Just tell me you still love me and my happiness will show again. Its you. Always will be.
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No matter how much shit we go through Derek, I think i will ALWAYS love you
haha this is perfect